Monday morning-ish thoughts

As usual, I'm just sitting here contemplating my life. 

I decided I need to start writing more.

I wrote a poem last night, but it was really late, so it was ramble-y.

I'm definitely more of a fiction person.

My idea college major would be English with a Creative Writing emphasis.

However, a small part of me feels like I could do "more" than that.

Like, if I really wanted to, I feel like I have the "brains" (I guess) to go to med school or something.

I don't want to waste my "skills" on a major that it feels like a lot of slackers pick.

Also, everyone seems to criticize it, but if you say "I'm majoring in Journalism," people somehow think that's more prestigious.

(When, actually, they probably won't find a good job either if they don't try really hard.)

I realize it's not all about the major.

But studying abroad/finding an internship this early is not very possible.

Also, people say, "Do fun stuff your first year and join clubs!"

Yeah, well the stuff I actually like (theatre/vocal stuff) is really competitive unless you're a major in music or theatre. Or if you're an upperclassman.

I am doing one dance thing, and that's cool, but it's not like I'm fully satisfied with that.

Still, it's not like high school where there's so many easily accessible clubs.

So, yeah. If you're one of my high school pals reading this... enjoy those clubs while you have them! Especially if you plan on going to a big university.

Also, how much time do people think I have? (Well, I am being a hypocrite right now by blogging. I have like 150+ pages to read for a novel that I'm clearly not doing.)

On a side note, it's really annoying too not knowing what grades I'm getting. Again, not like high school where every assignment's grade is at your fingertips.

I guess I'll find out eventually?

OK, some positive things:

I got to see friends this weekend since I went home for State marching band competition.

I miss feeling comfortable around people! It was nice to actually be able to act like a weirdo and laugh at stupid stuff... and not just over Skype.

Also, here's a life lesson from a bathroom stall. (Who takes pics like this? Creepy people like myself.)

I even Instagrammed it.

Haha, maybe I could start a whole new blog about life lessons from bathroom stalls. That would be so amusing.

Anyway, back to reading.

Happy Monday!

(Sort of?)